Lately I feel like a horrible mother. I have had flowers to take out to Logan that I purchased over a month ago, but I can’t seem to bring myself out there. Why? What gives? I feel terrible and I internally beat myself up about it.
I miss him dearly and wish he was here with me. It seems the name Logan is really popular now. I hear it all the time and each time my throat lumps up.
So, if I miss him so much, why can’t I bring myself to go visit him?
You’ll go when it feels right. He knows you’re thinking of him.
You are not horrible, nor are you a horrible mother.
You are not a horrible mother!!! I agree with Monica on this.
Honey, I do not began to understand life. But, seeing you with Corban, I know you are a fantastic mother. (and daughter) When Granddaddy died I could not go to the cemetary for a long time. I felt guilty because Aunt Betty, Uncle Dean and Uncle Sam all went there all the time. I just couldn’t do it. At that time, we were going to Trinity Baptist and I spoke with the pastor about this. Everyone grieves in their own way. I did not need to go there to talk to Daddy. After all, he wasn’t really there. The thought of going there made me very sad. I did not want to be sad. I know Daddy did not want me to be sad. I believe you are truly healing by showing that you are not constantly going there. You will never forget and you will always wonder – what if? But look at what you have in front of you, not behind. I love you with all my heart.