Man, I have been so neglectful of this site. I miss blogging. Life has had me running lately.

Now, however, I have my own computer soon to be set up somewhere other than the office. So, I will be able to access the internet during the day! Woo Hoo!!!! I hope to catch up on the blogging – Corban willing!

So stay tuned friends. Hopefully I will catch you up on what has been going on in our lives.

And, Monica, I am so sorry that we haven’t gone to lunch yet. I owe you big time!!

Lately I feel like a horrible mother. I have had flowers to take out to Logan that I purchased over a month ago, but I can’t seem to bring myself out there. Why? What gives? I feel terrible and I internally beat myself up about it.

I miss him dearly and wish he was here with me. It seems the name Logan is really popular now. I hear it all the time and each time my throat lumps up.

So, if I miss him so much, why can’t I bring myself to go visit him?

Well, I went for my mammogram last week. When they found out I was still breastfeeding, they opted to try just the sonogram first.

So, I was taken into this room and had my boob pressed with warm gel and the sonogram wand. The tech looked for like 15 minutes but couldn’t find a lump anywhere. So, off to the mammogram after all.

I stood, holding my breath as I watched the nurse spread my right boob across the plate. Then the clear top plate came down and my boob started to flatten out! I kept waiting for the pain to come, but it never did. She said I was probably feeling some discomfort, but I wasn’t. And let me tell you, my boob was HUGE and FLAT!! Crazy! So, it was pressed from the top then from the sides. Then it was the left one’s turn. Again, no pain or discomfort. I was relieved. She said it was because I have good breast tissue.

As I sat in the waiting room for the thumbs up that the xrays were OK, I contemplated what would happen if I did have breast cancer. So much ran through my mind. It’s crazy how you’re imagination can run away from you. I decided that I would be OK if I had to loose them. Better that than go through chemo.

So, I was finally told that everything looked good and I wouldn’t have to take any more “closeups”! Now, just go home and wait for my letter and a call from the doctor.

Received my letter in the mail. Great news! No cancer or anything. My doctor’s office called today and said they couldn’t find even the smallest lump. Of course, I have to go back in to his office for another check (drives me crazy), but I’m in the clear!

Thank you, Lord, for giving me great results! I really needed a freebie after going through what I have.

I haven’t blogged in a long time, but I’ve been carrying something on my shoulders and I need to get it off.

I went for my yearly exam (which is really never fun) and my doctor found a lump in my right breast. He asked me, “Did you not feel this?”. Well, no I didn’t. I am still breastfeeding and only out of that boob, so it’s lumpy all the time. However, when he found it and made me feel, I could definitely tell it was different from the normal “breastfeeding lumpiness”.

So, now I have to get a mammogram. It sucks. I’m so worried about it. People are telling me, Oh maybe it will be nothing. Keep thinking positive. It’s probably just a cyst. Well, maybe and maybe. But that still doesn’t stop the wondering or worrying. Even if the results come back as negative, I will now always be checking myself for another lump. Will I have to go every time and get my boobs smashed (something I’m really not looking forward to)?

It’s funny. All my life I’ve complained about having big boobs. Now that there is a possibility they could be taken away, I want them. I now have to drastically wean Corban because you are not supposed to breastfeed for 2 days after a mammogram. This is something I wanted to do slowly so as to cause as little fussing as possible, but now it has to be done quickly. So, on top of being stressed about possible results, I’m going to have one cranky kid to deal with.

If you are the praying type, say a prayer for me and my sanity. I will post the results when I get them – good or bad.

An update and more pictures to come later.

Lori called me into the living room this morning to see a report they were showing on the news.  They played a 9-1-1 call from a guy that stated that he was being shot at.  You could tell that he was outside and he told the dispatcher that he just left the house that he was at.  Then he tells the dispatcher to wait a minute.  You could hear the guy talking to someone else while he starts to do a drug deal on another phone.  He tells the drug customer “Yeah, I’m over by the Pit Stop.  What you want?  A ten sack?  Yeah, it’s $75.”  The dispatcher heard what the guy was saying and sent a unit over to the Pit Stop where they arrested the dumba$$ criminal!

And yes, this really happened.  I don’t make this kind of stuff up.  You know, sometimes, people just deserve to be locked up!

Corban has a friend that is 3 weeks older than him. His name is Pierce. They get along famously! Two peas in a pod. He came over a couple of weeks ago for an almost all day play date. Here are some pictures from that day.  It was fun, they had fun, no one was hurt! (Click on the pics to make them larger)

Future rock stars

I don’t advertise things often at all, but I thought that this was definitely worth sharing.  Please take a moment and check out the movie trailer for this film.  If you have the slightest bit of patriotism in you, you’ll be moved by it.  I know I was!

Taking Chance

This is what we found in the living room when Lori realized that it was just too quiet in there.  And you can’t see it in the first picture, but that table has coffee spilled all over the top of it.  That’s the coffee that was in that cup on the floor.