Lately I feel like a horrible mother. I have had flowers to take out to Logan that I purchased over a month ago, but I can’t seem to bring myself out there. Why? What gives? I feel terrible and I internally beat myself up about it.

I miss him dearly and wish he was here with me. It seems the name Logan is really popular now. I hear it all the time and each time my throat lumps up.

So, if I miss him so much, why can’t I bring myself to go visit him?